The wheels on the bus go round and round!

Bright and early this morning the school bus rolled through the neighborhood, picking my wee ones up to start a brand new year of gaining knowledge. Incredibly, I didn't completely break down when they drove off. I won't deny that tears did stream down my face as I watched my little boy climb those steps after his big sis and wave goodbye. What am I supposed to do now that both my babies are in school full time? I don't even remember what its like having days to myself. I actually might go insane trying to keep myself busy. Maybe that job thing will find its way to me, who knows...what I do know is that I am NOT ready to have both my sweet tarts doing big kid stuff like going to school by themselves. Believe me, it was very hard to let them get on the bus let alone drive off without me losing it entirely, after all, it is Nikelis' first day of big kid school. Its a good thing Erik was able to have the morning off. Yes, there's no doubt in my mind that I may have serious mental issues, but I don't care. I still made Erik drive me out to Nikelis' school just to be sure that he made it there safely. After seeing Nikelis walk into his classroom unharmed I finally breathed a sigh of relief. But seeing him as nervous as he was made my heart sink. Why is being a Mommy so hard? When Kaylah went off to her first day I can't say I was this scared, I was more proud. I loved watching her walk off like she had no care in the world, like she knew exactly what she was doing. How are the two so different? Maybe I'm just a little heart broken that I won't ever be doing this again.

I gotta love that hubby of mine, he sat there with me waiting till Nikelis arrived not saying one word about how silly I was being. And when we walked out of the class he squeezed my hand, kissed my head, and said, "feel better?" I told him the truth: not one bit. I know that under Erik's sturdy exterior his heart was breaking into tiny little pieces just as much as mine was. I guess we'll just have to accept the future and everything it holds together.

I couldn't help it when I told him I needed to see Kaylah in her class, of course he amused my irrationalities. After sitting in a gross amount of traffic I got to watch Mikaylah sitting with her legs crossed, listening so intently ;-) for a few minutes before she saw us staring at her through the door. And when she waved us in I realized that my little girl is growing up. The only thing that was running through my mind at that instant was how in the world did this happen. One day you're a crazy new mom with a tiny little thing in your arms and the next she's in the fifth grade. Ugh...anyway, enjoy the pictures!