Thank you to all the special peeps in my life.

A forwarded email that I thought should be posted.........

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person... When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, To aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, This person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

☺I won't regret the people that have walked out of my life, but I will learn from those relationships.

ஐI will never forget those that have passed, whether they know it or not, they have taken a piece of my heart with them.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.

あAnd those memories will be cherished forever!

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, Things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, Love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

∞Love and friendship go hand in hand...all my everlasting relationships continue to build solid foundations.

❤•Thank you for being a part of my life, Whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.•❤

Slippery Landscaping

One of the greatest things about owning your own home is being able to do whatever you absolutely please to it. The peeps on our cul-de-sac are awesome in their own right: they care about what their house looks like and it's very nice to know that if we need a helping hand we have one or four!!! Since Erik is home to help out we've come up with many-a projects for our very temporary little nest egg. The greatest things we are attempting on our diy list is turning our front garden into a rock garden and putting up a gutter system so our garden won't get washed away in the next rain storm. Well, I am so stinkin proud of us, especially Erik, with the thanks of our stupendous neighbors. Not only do I have a beautiful rock garden that I love, but Erik dug a pond as well!!! Also, after a few trial and errors, advice from neighbors, and a few hours of cursing and tears Erik got the gutter system up! What a trooper...he sure knows how to woo me...haha...
Before...when the rain set in...
The truck was loaded down!!! Nikelis helped lay out the rocks!!!

I don't have a picture of the pond just yet because although it's complete, I'm not entirely satisfied so adjustments are still being made, but stay tuned...it'll pop up eventually!!!

ABC...baby You and Me!!!

A- Angels: What I was blessed with when I had Mikaylah & Nikelis!!!
B- Believe: Why not...!!!!
C- Cowboys Baby: It has to be our season!!! Romo better show us what he's made of!!!
D- Daisy Mae: Me!!! If I wasn't me I'd wanna be my friend...I'm fricken awesome!!! Haha...
E- Erik: The man that will forever hold my heart.
F- Food: I love to eat!!!!
G- Georgia: Where the Army sent us aka Home!
H- Hope: The one thing in life everyone should have.
I- Indescribable: The way he makes me feel!!!!
J- Just Joshin Ya: We like to jokey jokey in this house.
K- Kryptonite: One of my fav songs!!!!
L- Lucky: How very lucky I am in this life!!!!
M- Margaritas: I love me a good margarita...especially Mui Margaritas!!!!
N- Nieces and Nephews: Wish we were closer to them & wish my sis would have a baby already.
O- Open and Honest: I mean what I say and say what I mean, you'll never have to guess with me.
P- Positive: Is an optional way of life, I choose to be positive!!!
Q- Quick: You gotta be when you have kids...they keep you on your toes!!!
R- Relationships: I wholeheartedly believe they can last forever...always and eternity Love.
S- Silly: The way I am most the time, you can't take life too seriously.
T- Tiari: My sis...may God keep her safe....
U- Unsure: Of what life is going to bring but looking forward to it!!!
V- Viscious: I can be so it's probably wise to stay on my good side!!! ;-)
W- Wedded Bliss: Didn't know it really existed, but am glad I live it.
X- Xylophone: A very odd word...I thought it was the best word when I was a kid!!!
Y- Youthful: How I like to feel...and always will.
Z- Zach Morris: Thought he was the cutest thing when I was a kid!!! Haha

I'm taking a challenge...with all the craziness that life has I want to remember all the great times it also brought. This morning I'm going to take 5 minutes while the kids get ready for school and jot down some of my most heartwarming memories.

❤ Disneyland when I was a kid!!! I have the best family!!!
♡ My Grandpa & Grandma cooking the heartiest meals!!!
❤ Holding Mikaylah for the first time
♡ Realizing I fell in love with Erik
❤ Holding Nikelis for the first time
♡ Hearing Kaylah and Nikelis say "I love you" for the first time (however unclear it was!)
❤ Adventures in traveling from Hawaii to Utah with Tiari and Kaylah
♡ Thanking God that Erik came home after his first deployment
❤ San Antonio with Erik and Nick
♡ San Antonio with Erik and the kids
❤ D.C. with Tiari and ALL the kids!!!
♡ Virginia!!!!
❤ Carolina Beach!!!!
♡ D.C. for 4th of July with Erik and the kids!!!
❤ Welcoming Tiari home!!!!
♡ Welcoming Erik home!!!
❤ 3 spectacular weeks in Hawaii with just Erik!!!
♡ Road trip to Utah and Texas!!!
❤ Christmas in Utah!!!
♡ Vegas!!!
❤ Cali with the fambam!!!!
♡ Road trip with my big sis!!!
❤ Partying with friends I left in Hawaii...
♡ Meeting up with friends in the mainland
❤ Colorado!!!!
♡ My last birthday party, my hubby is the awesomest!!!!
❤ Monday and Tuesday dinners with Nick and Addy
♡ Taking Annie to Fort Hood!!! Hahaha....that's the only time I'll willingly go there!!!!
❤ Surprise visit from Annie made possible by the oh so talented love of my life...lol
♡ South Carolina!!!!
❤ First days of school for Mikaylah and Nikelis!!!

That's it, 5 minutes!!! Damn, I type slow!!! So those are just the ones that popped in head at this moment, there are so so many more!!! Although I haven't traveled too far from home I have memories to last more than this lifetime alone and people in my life that are simply irreplaceable!!! Thanks for the memories....

The wheels on the bus go round and round!

Bright and early this morning the school bus rolled through the neighborhood, picking my wee ones up to start a brand new year of gaining knowledge. Incredibly, I didn't completely break down when they drove off. I won't deny that tears did stream down my face as I watched my little boy climb those steps after his big sis and wave goodbye. What am I supposed to do now that both my babies are in school full time? I don't even remember what its like having days to myself. I actually might go insane trying to keep myself busy. Maybe that job thing will find its way to me, who knows...what I do know is that I am NOT ready to have both my sweet tarts doing big kid stuff like going to school by themselves. Believe me, it was very hard to let them get on the bus let alone drive off without me losing it entirely, after all, it is Nikelis' first day of big kid school. Its a good thing Erik was able to have the morning off. Yes, there's no doubt in my mind that I may have serious mental issues, but I don't care. I still made Erik drive me out to Nikelis' school just to be sure that he made it there safely. After seeing Nikelis walk into his classroom unharmed I finally breathed a sigh of relief. But seeing him as nervous as he was made my heart sink. Why is being a Mommy so hard? When Kaylah went off to her first day I can't say I was this scared, I was more proud. I loved watching her walk off like she had no care in the world, like she knew exactly what she was doing. How are the two so different? Maybe I'm just a little heart broken that I won't ever be doing this again.

I gotta love that hubby of mine, he sat there with me waiting till Nikelis arrived not saying one word about how silly I was being. And when we walked out of the class he squeezed my hand, kissed my head, and said, "feel better?" I told him the truth: not one bit. I know that under Erik's sturdy exterior his heart was breaking into tiny little pieces just as much as mine was. I guess we'll just have to accept the future and everything it holds together.

I couldn't help it when I told him I needed to see Kaylah in her class, of course he amused my irrationalities. After sitting in a gross amount of traffic I got to watch Mikaylah sitting with her legs crossed, listening so intently ;-) for a few minutes before she saw us staring at her through the door. And when she waved us in I realized that my little girl is growing up. The only thing that was running through my mind at that instant was how in the world did this happen. One day you're a crazy new mom with a tiny little thing in your arms and the next she's in the fifth grade. Ugh...anyway, enjoy the pictures!

Makes me melt

Even before our move Mikaylah was not happy about leaving her friends in Texas, she was just sure the kids out here would be mean and she'd have a hard time forging bonds. Well, we couldn't have asked for a more perfect scenario. Our neighborhood is about 95% military families who are just as disgusted as us with on post housing. Kaylah has made friends with the girls and rides bikes and just hangs out nearly every single day. I enjoy seeing her grow into this beautiful little girl, but Nikelis on the other hand wants things to go back to just him and her. Yesterday I told Kaylah that if she vaccumed, put away her clothes, and cleaned her room she could go out with her girls. Nikelis assumed I was talking to him as well and both kids got down to business. The house was near perfect and Kaylah was headed out when Nikelis' face completely dropped. He said, "What about me, I cleaned my room too." Ugh, my heart broke into tiny little pieces. Mikaylah, being such a good big sis told him she loved him and would be back later to hang out, do whatever he wanted to. But the tears were hard for him to hold back as he said, "I just wanna play with Kaylah, why does she have to go outside?" I guess the age difference is starting to make a difference. Poor little boy. When I told Erik about it we both had a hard time fighting back the tears. Its crazy what these little poopies can do to a parent's hearts!!!

A heart tormented...

When you are in a relationship and start to have problems when do you throw in the towel? Whether you are 10 years or 2 years together is there a point when there really is no sense in fighting for one another? I'm so confused, I don't know how a relationship could go so wrong. Everyday seems to be perfect and then all of a sudden your significant other who's supposed to be the love of you life says they just don't think this is what they want anymore, YOU aren't what they want anymore. There are so many emotions that go through your head and the only question seems to be "how the hell is my life going to be okay without you?" Your friends try to console you, your family does their best to keep you busy but nights are freezing even though its the middle of summer and days are gloomy even when the sun is scorching the rest of the world. Helplessness isn't just a state of mind anymore, it's become your life. Each day passes and all you are wondering is "is this really the end?" Tears continue to fall and no one is good enough to wipe them away except that one person who ultimately still holds your whole heart. All the while you're breaking in pieces every time that person looks at you and says "I have to go because I want to hold you but I just can't". Its unimaginable to try to explain what those simple words do to a person. Does the word commitment mean nothing anymore? Does commitment only come with vows or does it come from the heart whether vows are said or not? Do vows even mean commitment? What does commitment really mean? In this day and age is anything sacred anymore?
All these questions are just mine...I can't imagine what she must be feeling. I want nothing else but to take that pain from her and beat him to a pulp, but the only option I have is to listen to her cry and be strong for her and let her know that come hell or high water I'm not going anywhere. When he comes to his senses will it be too late? I don't know, I hope not. Then again, does he even deserve her? Should she just say goodbye and try to start over before she is truly crushed? How the frick did this happen. If only she knew every detail about him, would she still think he is worth crying all those tears, NO. He doesn't deserve to feel the love she has to give, it should be saved for someone who will appreciate it and NEVER tell her she isn't good enough! If they stay together will he eventually find something else that he doesn't like about her and want her to change again. If you love someone do they have to change in order for you to stay happy? I didn't think so but apparently other people seem to. Growing together and supporting each other is what couples are supposed to do, not being the same kind of people. Having differences and loving one another because of those differences is what makes a relationship so great. How could he think that she needs to be a certain way to make him happy. How could he do this to her? Why would he do this to her?

~~I know that I've been truly lucky to have found the love of my life at such a young age and I couldn't imagine things any differently. While others are going through such strife I am comforted by My ♥Love's♥ sweet promise that that'll never become us!!! Thank you for the years of undying love, comfort and support!!!