Something needs to give already!!!

There's always a person in your life that at any given moment you want to make sure that they are ok and want to make anything that upsets them go away. Erik and I truly do that for eachother, but this isn't about how our love is heaven sent, this is about a friend that is so much more.

Annie has been, as you know, in my life forever and I wouldn't have it any other way. What kills me is that she has to go through such a hard time right now. I hate seeing her in pain and there really is nothing I can do to make it better. She was so excited to come back to Hawaii and to be able to finally spend some good quality time with her love, Porter, without having to rush their excursions. Instead they were thrust into a life that would keep Porter from having any real schedule or time to be home with her. That's left her to try to start a household from scratch basically all by herself and then to live by her phone in the hopes that he will call and tell her to come pick him up or that he's finally on his way home after at least a 12 hour day. They find solace in eachother in the few hours they can squeeze in but it absolutely breaks my heart knowing that they aren't getting the quality they need. With all his previous training and deployements, this was supposed to be the break their hearts ached for. Sometimes I wonder why things are the way they are and why sometimes we get the breaks and other times we are left to suck it up. I want so badly to be able to make them both feel better, but I know nothing I or Erik do or try to do will.

I just wanted to write my feelings because even though Erik and I love to be here with them we feel a little cheated too, we were looking forward to spending time with Porter as well. I know, it sounds selfish, but we've been looking forward to this time with them for so long and now because of this voluntold job he has his family has to suffer. I know it's rough on Porter and I have to hand it to him, he is doing a spectacular job at handling everything. He completely lets Annie fall apart and like the great man that he is he picks up all the pieces and makes her so happy. I love Annie and I love seeing these two people together, like chips and dip, they are made for eachother!!!

I'm truly blessed in this life to have them as my family, I'm going to hate having to leave them, but I am thankful for this time I get to spend with them.