only...but that also means that I'm going to have to be leaving my two little poopies. It's amazing that in all the 7 years Erik and I have been married we've never been away from the kids at the same time for more than a night or two. This is a scary venture and yet I'm so excited to be having time without the kids to 
spend getting to know my husband all over again. I almost feel guilty about being happy to be away from them despite what everyone around me is telling me. It's been a hard couple of months trying to convince myself that I am actually going to be okay without them. What's even scarier to think about is that I won't be just away, I'll be an ocean away. I know that my mother-in-law, Angie, is more than capable of taking care of them and keeping them safe, still I worry with every ounce of me that it's the wrong thing to do. When are children okay to stay without their parents for an extended amount of time? When are parents okay to survive more than two or three nights away from their kids? Should I really be excited about them watching me walk onto an airplane to meet their daddy while they have to be patient and wait just awhile longer to be with both of us again?I'm torn and I'm going out of my mind with "what if's". All I want is for my little posterities to be happy and to know that I really do love them. Will I be scarring them for all time by leaving them? Is this normal for me to keep thinking and rethinking all that's right in front of us? What's wrong with me?
Maybe I should just take them with me and shorten my time in Hawaii...Here are reasons why:
Today Nikelis and I were laying on the couch and I told him that whoever is
the last to fall asleep has to wait up till its time to pick up Kaylah. For the next 15 minutes until Erik called Nikelis kissed and rubbed my face so that I would be the one that had to wait up! In the end we had a conversation about why the other should have to be the one to stay up. Mikaylah is devasted because Chris Brown, whose cuteness is now a waste, is no longer worthy of her affection. Her words were, "I can't like any boy who thinks it's okay to hit their girlfriends, that's just wrong". How and when did she become a little genius? I love them, with everything and more...How will I endure waking up without their morning moans and groans that its too early???
the last to fall asleep has to wait up till its time to pick up Kaylah. For the next 15 minutes until Erik called Nikelis kissed and rubbed my face so that I would be the one that had to wait up! In the end we had a conversation about why the other should have to be the one to stay up. Mikaylah is devasted because Chris Brown, whose cuteness is now a waste, is no longer worthy of her affection. Her words were, "I can't like any boy who thinks it's okay to hit their girlfriends, that's just wrong". How and when did she become a little genius? I love them, with everything and more...How will I endure waking up without their morning moans and groans that its too early???
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You're such an amazing mommy!! I say screw school, and bring the kiddies so I can steal them from you for a few weeks :) j/k...Remember, you're doing the right thing.
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